It feels like we spend a lot of time waiting. Waiting to get better, waiting to see what happens, waiting for tests, waiting for results, and waiting for life to be able to go on. Today we waited without any answers.
Time passes ever so slowly while waiting. I don’t know why I can’t wait more during the good times in life. As it is, waiting is hard, it’s exhausting, and although it tests my patience, it never feels like I win.
While I wait, there are times I can almost feel the hair on the back of my neck stand up. I know Satan is after me. He is out to steal, kill, and destroy, and he doesn’t have to use hard circumstances to get to me. He can seep in slowly through the cracks in my heart. He can get me thinking about what I want, what I should have, what I deserve, how I want my life to be…and I’m a goner. He will make me well aware, things are not as they should be right now. They’re supposed to be better. With disappointment and discontent, he will weave darkness around my heart. It will leave me wondering what’s so good about God’s goodness.
I know, because I already have. The only good about coming from such an ugly place, is knowing I never want to go back.
So as we wait, we will take what comes, and live in today. Hard as it can be, it’s also a humble blessing. Because here, I’m in desperate need of a Savior. It is in these dark times, when reliance and dependency are formed. The sufficiency of Christ is put to the test. We find true love doesn’t create a life of ease, but rather intercedes between heaven and hell.
Life crashes down creating an opportune setting for accumulating eternal blessings, giving waiting...an air of beauty.