October 21, 2015

Finding Grace in the Unknown

I knew something was wrong when a nurse from Omaha Children’s called this morning asking for contact information for Meg’s neurosurgeons.I sat on the floor with my head in my hands for the rest of the conversation. Hearing something was wrong with the scan, the radiologist didn’t know what an area was, and no one

October 20, 2015

Jesus Understands Exhaustion

Meg was up a lot during the night last night, and today hasn’t gone any better. She cries certain her head is going to puke, and it won’t stop pounding.Tired and exhausted we drove to Omaha Children’s. Staying in communication with Houston’s Neurosurgical team, it was decided to do an MRI and see what’s going

October 19, 2015

Living Up To Our Position

Tears filled Evan’s eyes as he wrapped his arms around my waist, and said, “I’m so happy Meg is still herself after surgery. I was so worried Mom, because I didn’t know if she would be.”It almost hurt to hear. Sure, I knew he was worried. I knew he didn’t know what was going to

October 16, 2015

When Things Could Be Better

You know you’ve been gone too long, when your bed doesn’t feel like your bed anymore. It’s taken a bit for Meg to adjust to being home again and recover from the trip. She continues to have severe pain episodes, and it’s apparent when her cranial pressure fluctuates high during the day. She’s comforted by

October 11, 2015

When God’s Got Us

There are times when chaos dies and I find myself in the beauty of silence. It is usually there, or here, lying next to my sleeping child, when I have time to think about what’s going on. I’ve faced a lot of days I know are too much for me. Days I have to keep

September 23, 2015

A God Who Holds Me Up (and together)

My heart locked in my chest seeing my baby and the scared look in her eyes waking up from surgery. Her frantic looks calmed, as she focused on me, and heard me say her name. It was a moment I could have slumped to the floor and cried for how hard life can be. But