When I look at my life from this world’s view, it makes me want to cry. For all obvious reasons, it doesn’t leave many feelings of gratitude. Awful situations, unpleasant moments, and times I was proven wrong thinking life wouldn’t get any worse, have formed an extensive list of what I am most unthankful for.
God and his grace, have their work cut out with me. I know He has to lavish it on me, so I can see a truer perspective of reality.
I wouldn’t have it in me myself. It’s crazy, backwards, and doesn’t make much sense. Which causes me to see God’s hand in it, all the more. He’s always shown up and worked in ways never seen coming.
This Thanksgiving, is probably my best on record.
This year I’ve been shown more love, support, and encouragement than any other year of my life. Others have shed tears bearing a part of my burden with me. Many of them, I don’t know. But I’m certain their thoughts and prayers have held me together when I would have been falling apart. People have come to my rescue, in so many different ways. Without them, I don’t know where I’d be. God has used so many people to meet our needs, exactly where we are.
There are times anxiety starts to rise, sensing the scary predicament we’re in. Feeling my hands tied, about sends me over the edge. But I also know God is the only way. He’s going to have to provide. He has, time after time. In big ways and in small.
Just like manna, it’s never in advance, but rather as we need it. Today I know we are taken care of, and tomorrow, I know He’ll show up to do it again.
I can’t deny the pain, hardships, and suffering we’re bearing, holds no attraction. No one in their right mind, would jump into this willingly. Nope, this kind of thing is unloaded on your doorstep, in the middle of the night, stamped, “nonreturnable and nonrefundable”.
Ugly as life may be, I’m glad we’re called to not be of this world, and to see things differently. A verse I read the other day really hit home;
May you have the power to understand, as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you may be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. Ephesians 3:18-19
Experiencing His love is the way to the full life. Not rising to the top, making a lot of money, having a sought after lifestyle – everything that would top my regular thankful list.
I see Him showing up day after day, loving and providing for us, when we’re broken and hurting, and practically unlovable. Every day we trudge through, wearing out from Meg’s pain and tears, and every day He shows up to do it with us. Seeing Jesus in different ways, letting Him be our Savior, I see how all these hard experiences with him, bind us together in a way we may not have been otherwise. No one knows how lucky we are to see Jesus save.
Every day, Jesus reaches out to us all. With the ugly gore of nail scarred hands…he shows us how beautiful love is. It makes the pain and heartache of these hardships far less repulsive.
We praise the God who steps in, giving us the Ultimate Thanksgiving, when we need it the most.